The Blue Hour Gospel

Generic book covers all featuring muscular men, under the category of "Gay Literature" First, a quick “aside,” if you will, on the point of this writing today. A while back I realized that my bookshelf was awfully barren of gay literature. I think for so long I had focused either on strictly horror, which I know is innately queer but not the same thing, or on the typical cut-and-paste fantasy/sci-fi genres. I could blame it on those books being easier to find because they are

Screw Maps and Road More Travelled Interior of a car, looking through the windshield at a long country road during the golden hour. A month of sharing in and I’ve given you a glimpse behind the curtain of The Blue Hour Gospel. To say this journey has been unexpected would be an understatement. I think when I started out the writing process, I had drunk a solid mixture of 1-part delusion and 1-part naivety. There is a LOT of literature and loud voices who say this is an easy t

A tent with a faint yellow glow, surrounded by fireflies, seen through a rainy window. I won’t lie; Section Three was the hardest section to choose from. It was one of my favorite sections to write, but every time I thought about sharing a piece from it, I felt like I was giving too much away. Kind of like I was handing you the conclusions to spirals you are supposed to experience after travelling through the whole thing, start to finish. The long way around is the only way t

A burning cabin seen through a rainy window So I was going to save this article for later, but I can feel the shift in the season starting so felt why not be vulnerable. Yesterday I came across a note on here shared by a user talking about community and finding it here. I remarked that it was lovely to be in a community that is still focused on perspective and thought here and not the typical things we find ourselves drawn to. As a gay man it’s inevitable on these social plat

A Swing set seen through a rainy window This may come as a wild shock but I decided to start the book off with….wait for it….my youth. I know, what a crazy concept! While mildly unoriginal it was massively important to talk about that time since it really set the stage for what comes later. Examining how queer people experience childhood and early adolescence is important because these years are when social norms around gender, belonging, and desire are first learned, enforce

The Blue Hour Gospel is a powerful and poetic exploration of queer identity, desire, shame, love, and self-discovery. Through intimate reflections on childhood, family, longing, and mortality, it captures what it means to grow up without the words for who you are and the courage it takes to claim yourself anyway. Honest, lyrical, and deeply affecting, this is a story for anyone who has ever lived between silence and truth. Split into three sections, the book explores themes f